Snotty Noses and Serious Thoughts

My nine month old son, Layne is sick.  No ear infection.  No throat infection.  Just a good old cold that is producing unbelievable amounts of snot.  And it’s making him more miserable than any illness thus far.  We went to the doctor today hoping to hear it was something that we could give him medicine for.  But, it’s not.  We just have to ride it out.  And any parent knows that’s a bad feeling.  Just holding him while he cries and knowing you can’t do much about it.

So, while we were waiting for the nurse to return, Brad and I were realizing how much our perspective has changed since becoming parents.  I mean, I’ve always hurt for people when I see the pictures of their children starving.  But, just in the how-can-that-not-affect-you kind of way.  Now that I have a kid of my own, I’m in a whole new place.  How could anyone function after watching their child die of hunger, not being able to do anything about it?  It was a serious moment for us.

Fast forward 30 minutes.  Literally.  That’s all it took.  Driving home, we passed Coits and I knew deep in my heart that if I didn’t stop for onion rings at that moment I would regret it for the rest of my life.  And if you get onion rings, you have to get root beer.  I think it’s what any level-headed individual would do.  $6 on a whim.  It’s already gone and I’m already sad about the amount of grease ingested.

And it took me until just now to make the connection.  It’s not that I thought about it, weighed the options, and decided the onion rings were worth more than the $6 could do when given to World Vision or some other aid organization.  It’s that I didn’t even think about it.  I just needed onion rings.  What’s that got to do with anyone else?

Now, lots of us have talked about Spero not being a guilt-driven organization.  And I’m whole-heartedly behind that.  It’s just about awareness.  I don’t want to feel like I have to second guess every decision and wonder what it means about my soul.  I don’t think that’s walking in the freedom we have in Jesus.  But, I do think Spero can be about a bit of remembering and focusing.

I’ve learned not to make too many bold statements I won’t be able to deliver.  I’m not going to swear off eating out for the rest of my life.  But, I’m just going to pray that the Lord helps me remember about what I say is important to me when I’m in the little moments.  I say justice and hope and dignity of life is important.  I’m generally not tempted to work AGAINST those goals in any way.  I just need His help in working FOR them more times than I am right now.

I promise all the posts won’t be this long.

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1 Comment »

  1. holly said

    well said and timely, too. i think spero will help us gain focus and direction on how to follow up our feeling and put the Lord’s guidance into action. thanks for doing this.

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